i tried too hard .

HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY ! Okay whatever .
This year's teachers' day is nothing much , it's boring . Yes , I am really not used to 3B , I have to idea why . I know I shouldn't be missing 1E & 2E and all , I have great friends in 3B but yeah , I just can't . Don't ask me why . The party was just awkward , maybe it's just me but yeah . Nothing else to blabber here .
Okay bye .

"Don't ever mention to me anything if you don't mean it."

a penny for my thoughts

Previously , I guess a lot of things did happened . But sometimes no matter how much I want to someone about it , I chose not to . Not that I don't want to share but I don't want to become a burden to someone else , they have things to bother about .So , I guess , I shouldn't add on any stress . I should just pick myself from all those shyt I am in and I'll be fine soon :) Now , everything's going well now , thank God . And , guess what ? Today's friday ! TGIF ! But I still have to wake up early tomorrow ): At least , I get to sleep more (y)

Really thank you for today , maybe it was just a short conversation but at least I felt that someone is still there to care for me :) You're probably the only one who approached and asked if I was okay and all . So I'm really grateful for a nice friend like you . Thanks .

 

some things were meant to be .

What do I have to expect further on in my life ? I have absolutely no idea . Yesterday I chose church instead of class outing , is it a wrong decision ? Why does it feel like I'm being judged because of that ? Some people just get so pissed and scolded me with that word . I mean hey , who are you to say that to me ? I may have high tolerance level but it's getting way too overboard . I swear I'm going to explode if you freaking do that again . I honour my God , that's of course . Don't ever say any of such nasty things , you period . I guess , you wouldn't ever see my blog , but I hope you do . Thank you very much .

a random picture
<3

the purple chicken nugget .

I woke up real early today , and I'm really tired now . Whatever , I have no mood for anything . Like seriously . 'Everyday is a brand new day .' Yeah , so what ? It's not like you have to power to rewrite your life story because everything you have done will cling onto your memory forever . Sometimes , things get way too overwhelming that you need to stop doing everything and anything . Let emptiness take over you , which seems really impossible . I want to escape to a place , whereby there's nothing and absolutely no one to make a mess in your life and cowardly backs out . Kudos to those who are living perfect lives, I salute you . I am , struggling in my life . How I wish that life would be as simple as only having me and God . That will be just great . But obviously . that's fantasy for now . Okay bye , I don't want to type anymore .

;)

Fate be changed, look inside. Mend the bond torn by pride.

I have been receiving weird visions or should I say I could sense what is going to happen in the near future , twice , I have all been so spot on . I am going mad , really mad . Forget about all these unhappiness , let's talk about the dinner & movie yesterday .

Fate be changed, look inside. Mend the bond torn by pride.

This was one of the quotes that I remembered from the movie , BRAVE . The witch kept repeating this sentence , And , it was quite significant and memorable to me somehow . It wasn't really a fantastic movie that send you thrills and screams but I can assure you that it is really 'educational' in some way or another . You could go and watch , laugh and learn from the movie . Yeah . Ohyeah , I shall do my movie review on this .

Yesterday's dinner was supposed to be fun and all but , I don't know , I didn't really have the mood to enjoy dinner and movie . I eat only half of the 6-inch subway sandwich and I was trying to be entertained by the movie . I tried my best to enjoy , but I couldn't . And apparently , no one there was able to sense it so forget it . Kinda had a short talk with amos , all that he said made some sense but I really don't know what to do . Like I have said before , I am not that bad to put all the things behind and move on with my life . I have no idea how to , I don't want to leave things hanging and it comes back to bother me every now and then . I need answers to all my doubts , but how ? That's a mystery for myself to solve .

hypophrenia

DRUNK .

Okay whatever, just these two pictures. They take ages to get uploaded. 

And yeah, after today I'm officially #broke. I need monehhh . HAHAHAH !

Today was fun :) I think I have short termed memory , can't really remembered what happened in detail though. Was supposed to go for Outreach outing but meh , mum don't let . Cos got water , and ghost festival coming . Aiya , all her superstition beliefs and stuff . All I can do is , RESPECT .

Dinner with Sowers tomorrow ! ♥ I will be super duper broke to eat anything or even for movie . URGH .

Should I ? Or not ..

chocolate milk .

National day celebration in school today . I guess , everything turned out fine ? There's nothing much to expect anyway . Stood rather long for one of the speech by the Guest-Of-Honour . I was practically dying during it mentally , I was so tired and his voice is irritating . Having to tell us his life story when he was actually supposed to be sharing related to being a student and stuff like that . It became his life story ? It wasn't that bad , but I guess I didn't have to mood to do anything . Because .. Nevermind . Getting dao-ed in the face isn't a great thing yeah .

Okay , let me recall what I have to do / go during this short 'holiday' ..
Tomorrow I'm going out for bs, maybe going to watch fireworks ?
Fri, 8am having to meet up and do proposal at Simei. Maybe going for Outreach outing if I can.
Sat, dinner with a great bunch of friends. Zone service ? Maybe.
Sun , chiong homework and study for tests (or procrastinate)

Cell lunch today was.. EPIC XD .

I need more time , more of everything .
where are you ..

what is maybe ?

Yesterday was , I don't know . Reached home around 10 and I had such a foul mood since then . I have been bombing people the same few questions and guess what , they all replied maybe . I mean maybe means  A mere possibility or probability. What kind of answer is that , I'm not fuming mad right now but I am just feel insecure . Insecure about how it will become few months or few years later , will anything change ? Something will happen again ? People walk in and out of my life and leave just like that . When the wrong people walk out of your life , then the right ones will enter . Oh really ? Gonna indulge myself in work these few days and I am not going anywhere anymore .

“Many people will walk in and out of your life, but only true friends will leave footprints in your heart”