Monday, 25 February 2013

trying too hard makes me crumble at the end

Lately, I'm not doing very well. Honestly. I think you could tell straight in the face, because somehow all my smile is all not real and I'm serious about this. Deeply inside of me, I'm feeling all kinds of emotions, of course, those negative ones. I feel lost, maybe because I just had to let go of something important that I held on to for rather quite long. It was a struggling in the inside of me, it's quite tough. But yes, it will pass by sooner or later. It's all just a matter of time, well times heals. Right? Or maybe, "Time doesn't heal, it's what you DO with the time that does." So what am I supposed to do? I have tried all means to get over and MOVE ON. But it all comes back to haunt me(okay, exaggerating but you get me) now and then.

Wished we could retain only memories that we wanted, 
and discard the rest, permanently.

It's not that I want to rant all these emotional thoughts here, but I just needed a place to express my thoughts. So, don't ask me if I'm alright. And no point apologising sometimes, the word "SORRY" has been overused and has lost its significance. Used so commonly that it has became an excuse to avoid your mistakes or even an awkward conversations you want to run away from.

All these things that happened recently made me selfish, I really hate myself now.



Random but,
Life's short, paddle hard.


vexatious 

Wednesday, 13 February 2013

study date ;)






















#cny2013

Went back to Malaysia feeling bad, came back to Singapore feeling much much worse. This year's cny is horrible beyond words but HAHAH OH WELL!




#ootd #cny #day1









That's all ∞

Friday, 1 February 2013

what to do..?

Just, what to do right now? Can someone tell me? I'm so stressed about everything that I'm responsible for in my life. PTC, was it supposed to motivate me to study? I really don't know, I'm actually quite demoralised after it. Why is it that I can't do well? Every single time I put in effort and everything turns out negatively. I'm trying way too hard to make things work. I'm tired, can I give up  and take a break from everything? I need to sort things out in my mind, I'm thoroughly confused. WHATEVER. 

pretty cupcake ;) :*

There's nothing left to say, I'm just waiting, waiting for the impossible to happen.