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6 days to Semestral Examinations, I'm officially lagging behind. I've barely comepleted 3/5 subjects, I need some help here. I'm experiencing a little burnout, nothing's going into my mind whenever I study. Everything is going to repeat again, I'm just going to do badly for major examinations. Everyone around me is doing really well and I'm like the pathetic one trying hard to keep up with the pace.

Slept well, but still super tired during the day, the cycle repeats itself everyday. I need my break soon, break from all the notes and stress. I need a break so badly this time round.
Apart from all these, well I'm still quite thankful for friends who stood by. And of course you, you were always there ♥

Previous week was a week of adaptation, this week's going to be a week of challenges too. Need to overcome all the stress and sleepiness, I can do this. I hope.

And, I miss you lots ♡♡♡

♥ Most important, 

demons hide..

"Don't get too close, 
it's dark inside,
it's where my demons hide." 

School could have even better when I would be proven, why is it that it always happen on me, my group of friends? Trusting someone was much easier back then, although I didn't had much true friends that I share my hear with, it felt better. I don't have to proven right about negative sides of people. It is true that everyone has another side? Who will be next then, someone who I currently trust? I hope not. Really. I wasn't really affected this time round, it's really strange. I'm probably suppressing all of my emotions but that isn't a good choice though. But can I stop having this kind of liars in my life? Using your past to be an excuse to hurt others isn't humane.

No one goes around to flaunt about your own tragic past, at least not me. No one actually truly knows what I have been through, before you act out and demand for our pity. Before even crafting your own sob stories, don't be oblivious of who you're trying to talk. Honestly, I don't even know how I'm feeling now about this whole issue (second exact situation), am I affected? Am I supposed to be affected?

Still thankful for those who are still around, supporting me now and then. Dealing with trust issues isn't easy at all, to be honest, I am unconsciously re-evaluating everyone. I'm no better, but what about everyone out there? What if one day self-defense becomes an excuse?

Show me how to fight.

YH, thanks for staying by my side all the time, xoxo ♥