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Week 6 is down and next week is the final week before Term Test. Promised myself to start revising earlier so I can sleep well one day before exam but I just don't have any extra time. It sucks when you plan things so well but time is such a big hindrance. Results orientated people must be suffering so much, lucky I'm not, I still have a life. Hahaha.

This week was pretty bearable, just that there is too many deadlines to meet. Everything's settled for now, except for my short story essay which I can't get myself to start on. The thought of reading through almost 100 short stories is just so tortuous. Shall deal with it last today.

Completed a whole chunk of work already but still not done yet. Meh. And finally first submission of SG50 is ✔ yay. Shopping spree on Friday and I bought lots of stuff.

Don't know what else to say but I'm going to let nature take its course for my results and all. 强求是行不通的。

339 ♡

Just some random thoughts.

So, yeah school starts tomorrow, again. This weekend has been really bad, but thanks to those people who hear me out or just being there for me. I really appreciate all of y'all. Major assignment are killing me, Poster Assignment which is freaking big 30% component, Short Story Essay of 1100 words being 15% and etc. Haish.

BUT, you know what. I've started on no shyt for those things listed above. Looks like it'll burden me again on the next weekends. 2 more weeks to Term Test, I'm caught up with all my shitty and confused emotion again. Nothing's new. Meh.

So I guess I'm getting back a few of my tests from tomorrow onwards, this time round I need to keep to my principles. I'm not going to reveal my marks or rather ask for other people's marks. It sucks yknow, when you know you subject yourself to comparison. So yeah, I should not be part of that. Shall start to live with this "rule" of mine till forever.

I should stop making comparisons, it'll only make myself feel worse. I need to get my shyt together, and I'll do well. I hope. 

Just a randon picture to fill up the space.
#throwback to Monday, on the train to get to Gardenia factory. Ah that reminds me, SG 50... Haish.

so done..

Hectic week has become the norm, so I don't think there's much for me to elaborate on. Test after test, it's just part and parcel of your life in school. I have sort of get used to it but every Friday right after school you'll just feel so drained and sleepy. Seriously, when will all these stop? I'm getting tired of living for school.

Nothing much happened, or should I say I can't really remember? Yeah, I really don't remember. Right now, I just want to sleep in and forget about every conflicting thoughts I have right now. Sleeping everything away seems like the only way out. Just for now.

This week has been really quiet, both of us are busy and we barely spoke. I know that we are both working towards our better future. Don't forget our promise. I'll press on and I  will always be waiting for you. Exams are around the corner, it's time for us to focus. Till we meet again next month, I can't wait for it ♡

Uhm that's all for now, till next week!

330 ∞

So worn out.

Week 4 is down, and I'm glad it's over.
My body's failing on me every now and then, I'm getting really fed up. I've got enough of bad things all these while in a snow ball effect and I really need it to stop. Things haven't been going smoothly and I really hate everything now. I need a platform for me to rant and vent alll my negative emotions but I couldn't find one and I can't put them into words.

Too many things to think of and handle, and also too many things that irritate me. So worn out I can't put myself back together to carry on. Tertiary Education is just too much to handle (apart from Academics though). It's probably time to wake up and stop letting myself down.

能耐如今以到瓶颈，谁知未来将会如何。再这样
延续下去，我迟早闷出一身病来。我的人生真悲哀啊，去了一个又再来一个。

My broken Chinese isn't making sense but you don't like to crack your brain and figure it out.
Time now is 10.43pm, getting real tired so it's time for a good rest for the battle tomorrow. 

G O O D N I G H T .
(Maybe I'll update tomorrow, bye.)

Hi again, I'm back for an update with some pictures taken after SciCom Presentation. Not a happy thing to mention and I'm rather reluctant to get a shyt about it but I can't deny the fact that the photos are nice. And CCN Day with pretty little treats made by my class, including myself. Yay.

Yeah so the following are the pictures, enjoy LOL.

Thanks for always being there,
324 days and counting ♡
I wished you could be here to make me feel better.

Alone Time is my Temporary Bliss.

Week 5 would be better. 

So done with school, meh.

This weekend I didn't get any rest, the worse thing was I had to rush all my tutorials and presentation slides with script while having a fever. How bad can my weekends get? Not so worried for presentation but I just have no confidence in my content this time round. Hope that it'll be okay, I just need to speak with confidence to cover up. /fingerscrossed/

Getting tired of thinking of what to eat everyday, how I wished I could eat normally like before. The thought of next week is even worse, can I just give up? So tired of trying so hard to get everything done and all. Test on Tuesday but I end school at 7pm tomorrow, I really wonder how I'll survive.

It's so weird how the busy schedule doesn't make me stress at all, super packed week 4 and 5, followed by Term Test on week 8. I need a little stress as motivation please? Meh. I wonder what's wrong with me, not physically tired and not stress, maybe I'm numb. I'm still sleeping rather well every night. Haha.

But overall I'm still proud of myself, finishing everything on time and according to my schedule yay. I'm just left with burden CCP, k can.

I'm feeling alright, don't worry ♡

Dug out an old photo today HAHA.. #throwback to carefree times

Week 3

So, I think this week zoomed past like way too fast? Week 4 having two tests and one presentation is approaching too soon, week 5 having 3 tests right after isn't really favourable too.

I guess nothing much happened this week, I just had to learn how to bear with all the shyt I experience and turning a deaf ear to some stuff here and there. But, I know this wouldn't be the best solution, I just have to hang on for the time being.

Yesterday was totally full of good wand the bad, it was Rehana's birthday and I ALMOST lost my watch. So thankful it was still there.
I'm quite unwell now??! So stay tuned till next week! (if I do blog)

10 Months and 13 Days 💕
Thanks for always being there ♥∞

Week 2 down.

This week has been interesting?! Waking up from my ideal world dream and realised new things here and there. I'm quite thankful that I'm not as foolish as before and I guess it's time to stand up for myself and fight for the best. Things don't always go the way we want them to be, but no, I've come to realised that they can turn out to be to your favour. You know what, just don't always compromise and put yourself down. Everyone will just step all over your dignity.

Don't ever let things go those ways but in fact, your own way, to your own benefit. Eliminations are bound to happen every now and then in the real world out there, just accept and embrace it. Learn to live to somehow say things that pleases people, not the other way round. (Yes, I need to learn.) Getting too comfortable with your current situation/attitude will get you nowhere.

^ just some random thoughts, don't think too much, it doesn't mean anything, I'm okay. 

(No, now I've thought about what it means.)

I realised that I have been too caught up with being complacent and I guess it's time for me to get all my shyts together sigh. I need to start correcting my attitude and start studying right, Term Test is around the corner and I don't want to screw it up and make things difficult for Sem Exam. Having said all these, I hope I'd do something to change the situation though. Big big sigh, everything just sucks.

Went for my first two teeth extractions on Tuesday, one new thing that I really cannot overcome (or rather my body). The after effects of the extraction was not 100% endurable but definitely a courageous experience I can be proud of. No I'm not gonna attach a picture of my bloody teeth, it'll scare you. Sorry for scaring you Dan HAHA.

Nothing else to say because I'm having a fever right now, how bad can my weekends get.

HAPPY NOVEMBER GUYS!
May be odds of this November be ever in your favour.

Just pictures of food I had these two days. Or rather this week? I can't remember HAHA. 

Kimchi Fried Rice (in school) 

Hotcakes Breakfast (in school)

Fruity Pebbles Chewy Bar made by Hamzah 

Nasi Lemak from Qiji 

Ice Cocktail Jelly (in school)

I miss school with you guys ); School is such a pain in the ass now. Crash TP soon okay!! I still owe you guys the TP singlet oops HAHAHA.