Clearly confused.

Went out like around 12plus today. Man, I wanna go church go badly but I have to go out and buy CNY clothes. Why not on sat ? But just on sun ? It sucks man ._. Seriously. Walked and walked, bought lots of clothes. But, I'm not happy like how I used to in the past. I feel empty, very very empty. Nothing can seem to fill me, only God's love can. Lord, I need you to accompany me. Even with lots of friends that care for me alot, I need You more, more than before. 

I know you saw me, why did you avoid me ? Like you did last time. Why ?