fuuu you .

Things are getting worse since the start of school . Everyday's a bad and tiring day , having not enough sleep at all . Sometimes , I really have no idea why I had that courage that take up that role . Well maybe , I was over-confident that I will be able to do well . That was my best effort , but why is it that you screamed at me and embarrassed me in front of all the others . Saying that I suck more than them , what do you want from em then ? My life ? Come on , take it if you mean it . No point trying to give me fake comforts just to make yourself feel less mean . Well , I don't care if you would see this but yes , I do have a lot of thoughts that I kept in me . I don't want to ruin your mood , like you've always did to mine . I know how horrible it feels , yes I do . I care about how others feel , I compromise to their own feelings and needs . You said that I shouldn't ? But I will not change that part of me . God told me to love all His people , but sometimes I find it hard when it comes to you . You you you . You make feel like I'm nothing and now I'm demoralised . Is this the ending you want ? Maybe you just want to find a perfect and nice on the outside excuse to remove me from that role . If you want to remove me , have that courage to say it in my face . Don't stab me all over just to get things done . That's plain stupid , like what you say about me . I'm stupid , I suck . If you're better , you do it . Get things done the way you want . I will shut up and walk away .

Sometimes , I feel so scared to lose friends that now , I would be paranoid over a small change in seating arrangement . I pray that everything will turn out alright .
Every friend that I used to be close me , have turn away from me .

Look at my swollen eyes . 

Guess my mood , I'm wearing black from top to toe .

What has been done , is done .