^ 5.10's FIRST FULL CELL PHOTO (Y) ♥  

^ #buys #yesterday :)

So, yesterday was a great day ;) Went to Bugis to get my MAROON skater skirt and my DORK shirt :) Yes, last time to shop before the exams man muahahah. MYEs is exactly a month's time from today, and this is bad, I haven't started on a single thing. Especially Amath, if I do not improve this time wrong I have to drop Amath meh. A good yet bad thing, which means lesser subject combinations for JC (okay, maybe Poly) Hahah okay I digressed enough ~ Had cell dinner at BBQ Chicken with 5.10! Woohoo, first full attendance and Hui Shan came along too ;) YAY. Celebrated Shu Shan's and Valerie's birthday ^^ A great day and love my buys hahah! But. I'm officially broke ;(

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Everything's alright now.

too much of a coincidence

Met the indecisive woman, DANNICA ONG CHUN YUN to get her weirdest present ever. Was walking around Tampines Mall then we decided to head to Popular to get my stuff. And guess what, met Cat Lady ( Vinnie quoted) there, it felt like really awkward. Yes, very, can't even bring myself to walk past. And yes, you shouldn't have walked back, because I couldn't face you due to all those things I said the night before. But, I should stop thinking already, this feeling is horrible man.

Sometimes, now I keep thinking that everyone around me has changed but now that I think about it, maybe not. I realised that after all those things that ended more than one month ago, it changed me completely. I used to think that friends are the only ones that I can turn to but, I realised I depended too much on that one person. It's bad, really. I need to correct myself, well maybe learn to put back all my trust in my friends, once again. Honestly, I changed. I'm not that cheerful anymore, I think about a lot now. Often, overthinking KILLS.

Or maybe, I should learn to be independent. Like be a loner, hang out with myself and maybe learn to really be alone sometimes. So what now? I'm sitting on the fence, I don't know what to do next. What if my choice is a wrong one again? To trust or not. Maybe it'll land me much more difficulties than now. And, so many walked out of life now and then. Is it because of me? I'm a bad friend maybe.

"You should be sorry, you're the one who left."

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not over, just yet.

This picture is really nice heheh ^^

No words can express how I'm feeling right now, today was quite a bad day but urgh I should seriously shut up and rant how horrible I feel. Had Humanities Camp at Temasek Poly for the past 2 days! It was...productive at first! But, till the second half of Day 2, I totally zoned out and I decided to skip 3 hours more of lectures. Boohoo. Had 97batch dinner that night, these bunch of people never fails to brighten up my day, but hmmm some things said that night really jolted back too much memories. Well, painful ones of course. And yeah, explains my mood today.

"I LIKE TO BE ALONE, BUT I HATE BEING LONELY."

^ From twitter.

Just a short update. #bye

calamity.

"Surprised how much stuff happened in just one year." - Quoted from @fcukthtlove 

I'm back to update my blog because it has been dead since forever, but I had nothing much to write recently, I no longer like to share my deepest feelings and thoughts to anyone now. Well, except for God and those who care for me, appreciate the people that consistently was there for me and did not just leave for ____ (you fill in the blanks, thanks)

So, what's up with my life? Results constantly getting from bad to worse. Feeling empty. Feel judged. Always the extra. All sorts of things, yeah. I really don't know what I'm facing right now, a rough patch of my life? I guess so, but somehow this time I stumbled a lot more than the previous times. "If that one thing didn't happen, things would be so different"

ALL I WANT TO ACHIEVE NOW:
1. Lose weight
2. Save money
3. HALF MY L1R5 (impossible? haha idk)

old 5.8 heheh ;)