too much of a coincidence

Met the indecisive woman, DANNICA ONG CHUN YUN to get her weirdest present ever. Was walking around Tampines Mall then we decided to head to Popular to get my stuff. And guess what, met Cat Lady ( Vinnie quoted) there, it felt like really awkward. Yes, very, can't even bring myself to walk past. And yes, you shouldn't have walked back, because I couldn't face you due to all those things I said the night before. But, I should stop thinking already, this feeling is horrible man.

Sometimes, now I keep thinking that everyone around me has changed but now that I think about it, maybe not. I realised that after all those things that ended more than one month ago, it changed me completely. I used to think that friends are the only ones that I can turn to but, I realised I depended too much on that one person. It's bad, really. I need to correct myself, well maybe learn to put back all my trust in my friends, once again. Honestly, I changed. I'm not that cheerful anymore, I think about a lot now. Often, overthinking KILLS.

Or maybe, I should learn to be independent. Like be a loner, hang out with myself and maybe learn to really be alone sometimes. So what now? I'm sitting on the fence, I don't know what to do next. What if my choice is a wrong one again? To trust or not. Maybe it'll land me much more difficulties than now. And, so many walked out of life now and then. Is it because of me? I'm a bad friend maybe.

"You should be sorry, you're the one who left."

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