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I'm finally back on the keyboard. The last two weeks were not really good that all, nothing has been going right for me. You see, it's true, good times don't last long sometimes. It wasn't anyone's fault, but rather mine. So caught up with negative thinking, emotions and all. When will I be okay again? I want to be okay, or maybe better. I honestly feel so drained now, I don't know how to feel. Why do I always blurt out something stupid? I don't even mean it. At this rate, someday everyone's going to give up on me. A hopeless little pitiful soul. I always fall back to my old self from time to time, this has to stop. I need to stop letting those negative thoughts and emotions overtake me. If not, one day I'll lose myself.

Schools has been quite bad, trust is nothing at all. Some people just plan up a whole fucked up story just to earn your trust. How pathetic you are, losing 6 friends in just a few months. Wow. But at the end of the day, still thankful for those who were still there. Be it my friends or you. I'm thankful.

I broke the trust that we built together, I know I can never piece it back together but please let me build it up all over again from scratch.