sunflower seeds.

“Nothing is as it appears to be”

Well, searched for a motivating quote but this appeared so I guessed it's somehow or rather motivating? I woke up real early today, AND I fell asleep again. I was almost late for Oral, but thankfully I wasn't. I rushed to school like a mad HAHAH. Oh, back to the point, English Oral was great I guess, because Mrs Janet Koh is really so friendly. She recognises me, surprisingly.

Sometimes, I would rather want you to tell me the truth, let me hate you for a moment and then forgive you. But, it didn't turned out this way, it's always the same old excuses. For the last time, I had enough. I'm tired, real tired.

haha, i have a dimple.

3B CLASS TEE~

black and white.

EOYs ARE COMING SOON, I SHALL START MUGGING MAYBE.

who are you?

IGNORE.

It's easier said than done? Can't you guys show me how it could be done before the whole world tells me to do that. Well. I can't bear to do that to anyone, come to think of it, I've never ever ignored someone so completely because I dislike them in some ways. I treat everyone the same, I mean majority. Every single person I consult told me the same thing, oh just ignore and everything will be fine in a jiffy. I say to myself, isn't this running away from reality? I often wonder why people choose to run away from problems without trying to get a solution. Sometimes I wonder, yes this is my interest, to try to read people's mind. It's amusing  if someone would really have the ability to do that. Nothing else to hide, your mind is an open book. I wished that things could be so simple, so easy to figure out what is going through someone's mind. Things would be so simple, the world would become much better. Nothing else to hide, everything is disclosed.

Whole lot of..I don't know.

Life's going to get better, getting over it (:

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^ This is nice, so yeah.

2nd Class Drill Badge test today (: Had high expectations of myself but, had more disappointments in the end. I felt that I could have done better, I aimed for even more but I am not content at just being the second highest or whatsoever. I want something even better. Enough of this, well at least I PASSED and prove her wrong.

Have you ever sat down and just think about the most random things ever? You just get yourself so deep into thoughts and you think of all the negative things that you have done. Or maybe just simply thinking about who are those people who really treat you as a true friend? I mean, they may be those who have identity crisis and just be friends with you because they are afraid to be alone. Alone? Well, it is really frightening. Maybe I may used to think that way but now, no. I like to be alone now, thinking about stupid things. And yes, it will lead to a mental breakdown. But, isn't that called self-reflection?

So, what are best friends? Can someone give me a definition? It's quite difficult to understand. Or maybe too difficult to articulate.

hmmm .

^ That statement is pretty true, isn't it? 

Treat me according to your mood. Urgh.

Woke up early to have a run at Bedok Reservoir, but ended up walking simply because I was too lazy and all. Dear knee, go screw yourself, walked only 4.3km and you die on me. WHY. Whatever, but I had a great morning though. 

I finally started on my homework today, and of course, today was productive! (y) Did my gonghan and completed in 2 hours or so? It was quite fast for me already as I normally take the whole day. HAHAH. Wanted this post to be formal and all, but it's too difficult for me. I love to express myself in my way. 

"I eggyolk already." 

I swear this is the funniest phrase I have ever heard.

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Today was really packed, meet-ups one after another HAHAH. Morning was with the 97 batch mates, played Murderer and I killed myself, that was stupid okay. But they had a good laugh, so yupp I shall be the source of entertainment, after that was spending time at the park. Some AA group of guys talking aloud and comparing muscles, please, are those muscles? They definitely some disorder in their perception of things. Do you believe in sticking to tradition? Nah, just not for me. I mean, it's boring. Furthermore, I know my limits so yeah. Live your life as if there's no tomorrow.

this has no link to my post but it's nice (:

so what now ?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CELL LEADER , FRED !

Yesterday was a great day , it got me thinking about a lot of things and I realised that actually , I have totally no idea what my purpose in the cell . Was that a really bad thing ? I have absolutely no idea . Sometimes I really wished that everything would have been different , I wondered if I were to be born in a Christian family , maybe just maybe things may be different . I have no idea what I am  typing now because my mind now is in a state of confusion . Maybe sometimes I think way too much , I have a feeling that now I'm obliged to turn up for every single thing because everyone do so . But what if , I just can't ? I feel bad and all . but in the end who knows ? No one apparently yeah . I love my current cell , I feel so welcomed and accepted , yet at the same time if you ask me what am I contributing . At this point of time , I will look down and just , shake my head . Because I don't know . Really . I still need time to adapt . Things are getting too overwhelming all of a sudden .

Today , good and bad . I don't know what else to say . Just a question , is being straightforward really wrong ? I need an answer badly .

^ i just typed a lot of crap there 

okay bye