"我假装不在意 反而痛了自己."

So officially, today marks 99 days to O Levels. Time is flying past too fast, I want time to slow down. Apparently things were going really well for a moment, and it almost reached peak of happiness. But reality check, my hopes came crashing down. "At least this hasn't been dragged for too long." I wished that it could dragged on longer though, at least I wouldn't have to face it right now, it's a little too much to handle. Maybe not just a little, it's way too much to handle I suppose. I kept asking myself what my priorities were, honestly, I have no idea. Studies? I wouldn't say it's my priority, it's just something important to be I guess.

Yesterday was just a really bad day, I shouldn't have sent that risky text. I shouldn't have. I may have brought forward a wrong message, as if I was pestering for an answer. But, okay forget it. I ain't have time for this, probably it's time to face. Honestly, I'm wondering how I'm going to put it aside again, for the third time. Third time. See how I'm stressing on the phrase, THIRD time. "Hurt me once, shame on you. Hurt me twice, shame on me." So what's for me this time round? It's not first, not second, but third. This is getting way too absurd.

At the end of the day, I realised how someone was always there for me. Through so so much I've been through, that person was constantly there when I actually almost ignored him for someone else.

"I can't face that person in school, I'll probably just break down."
The reply I got: "Use mask." 

^That, obviously was an epic reply. But, it made me smile, somehow.
Really thank God for my friends, I've never realised their importance until I realised how much I've always troubled them to hear all my same old stories.

okay, I miss my long hair. ;(