such a fuss.

So, what's next would be the release of Semester Results. Really fear that in the end, it'll be disappointments even after working hard.. But I didn't put in full effort, was a little too complacent this time round. Will what I fear happen again this time? Scenes of that particular incident kept replaying in my head, but yet I don't have any friend close enough to say it out. I guess, trusting someone isn't easy. Or maybe sometimes when you start trusting, they do something that disappoint you, maybe even shun away from you. Probably, it's just me, it's difficult to trust. Having too many of you tires me out sometimes. Just maybe. 友谊就像多角恋情, 越多越乱. Well, indeed. I probably really need that 6 weeks of break. 

 Thinking about everything, deep down inside maybe I'm just not used to everyone, everything I have been dealing with for rather long? Life is full of adaptation and competition to emerge as the best suited in this world. Animals go through that, so do Humans. Nothing makes us more superior, maybe knowledge. But hey, the brain named itself. So are we really who we think we are? Or maybe it's our own imaginations. Everything that happens every single day, does it really exist? We don't even know. We're just plainly pathetic souls.

 We only live once, I guess we just had to make the best out of everyday. We never know when we will be gone for good actually. Love wholeheartedly, yet again life is always tied down by our own emotions. Emotion is primarily about nothing and much of it remains about nothing to the end. We determine how far we go in life, nobody else. I have to stop living to fit into people's perfect list, maybe being myself is the best.

 Being alone is good, but I hate the feeling of loneliness. 

I'm not a perfect person 

There's many things I wish I didn't do

But I continue learning

Wishing I could rewind to months ago, when it was just you and me.

Having new people in your life requires lots of adaptations which I can't do that well in. They shouldn't be the main people in your life, your family and loved ones should be.

Pardon my conflicted mind.
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